Working Woman

Well, today was the day I had been dreading for 3 months. I had to leave Blake with the next-door neighbor and go back to work. I handled it better than I thought I would. I teared up last week thinking about it and then this morning when I was feeding him I was fighting back the tears. I kept telling him he was going to have a fun day and how he'd be able to meet some other kids and watch them play...I think that was really to make me feel better. Anyway, to my surprise I didn't cry when I said goodbye or when I drove into work. I think it helped that I actually knew the person I was leaving him with and knew if she really needed anything she could go right next door to my house and get it. It's definitely going to be hard to adjust to only seeing him for a few hours a day though.

I haven't given you any updates lately. He rolled over once last week but hasn't done it again. He reaches for things and plays with a couple of his toys now. And he smiles more than any baby I have ever known. I can't help but smile back and giggle everytime.

We went to the cardiologist a couple weeks ago becuase the pediatrician heard a heart murmur. After an EKG and Echo they determined he has two small holes in his heart. She told me that it's one of the most common birth defects, which I wasn't aware of. And she explained everything very well. Anyway, we don't have to do anything differently and just need to go back in a year to see if they have closed up or not. Blake has surgery in October with the urologist. That's the next thing I am absolutely dreading.